My Reflection

REFLECTION: Jesus Teaching on Prayer
(Luke 11:1-13)


Lord, teach us how to pray – in so many times I’ve asked you what to give me, how to do my life, never did I asked you what do you want me to do. Lord, I have been blinded by what I need and desire most, which is to check on the material things that I don’t have yet. I forgot to ask how to do my life for you. Lord, my weaknesses you have filled-up, my cross you have carried, and my sins you have forgiven. I ask forgiveness for being blind not see the most important thing for me, and that is my family. You know how much I value them, just thinking that one day, I will lose them, I don’t know already what to do with my life, yet, I’m not doing my best to show them how much I care for them, how much I value them and how much I love them.

How about you, do you pray enough to have learned enough?

Our father, I know I still have time to correct my wrongdoings. I asked you to please forgive me and guide me. Teach me how to pray, teach me how to love, teach me how to follow you. Amen. – Maerskzenith Doliente

my sis

when i was younger, i've always thought i'll be the only daughter our family could have.. year 1993, a baby girl was born, she became my youngest sister.. i didn't know how to react at first.. maybe, i'll get jealous co'z the attention won't be with me anymore.. we grew up very differently.. i think i was born tough and strong.. she was meek and mild.. we are the exact opposite of each other.. i'm petite and small, while she got big bones and a lot taller than me.. she is prettier also, mind you.. but she is the sweetest among all.. she doesn't speak much, because she's afraid to commit mistake.. unlike me, so bossy and authoritarian, well maybe, because i'm the eldest..

my sister, Jhoy is the love of our family.. i know i've never been a good sister to her in the past.. but i know now my lesson.. she has been my source of joy in our family.. she just wants to make me smile and erase that frown on my face.. if only, she can do my work for me, i think she'll do it for me.. that's how sweet and caring my sister is.. i've been blinded by jealousy and all.. only to realize, i don't have any reason to be jealous about.. each one of us has his/her own role in the family.. i love my sister as i love my family, but i love my God above all..

isn't it wonderful for people to be together with one reason, that is, to love and serve God will all our might..

retreat 07-08

The retreat given to us by Father Gerry Juarez was superb according to my officemates. I really have not attended it that much but I felt that it was really good, to serve my officemates.. I've never felt Jesus more than anything but in serving other people.. I got tired physically, but my spirit is lifting me up..

I got a confession on that day.. I realized i'm not crying because i'm hurt, but i'm crying because I love the person, the reason why i'm crying.. I'm hurting not for myself but for the love I have for that person, none other than my father.. I just want him to remain with our God, but I realized I can only pray for him and allow God to take its course. I love my father, I am not surrendering him for anything, but I have to let go.. I cannot change him, but my faith will.. I know God will never abandon my father, he will take care of him.. I did not dream of losing my father to sickness or anything but if ever God will get him from me, I just pray that he has accepted our God as his saviour and creator..

I've realized so many things in that retreat in Bethania House of Prayer, and truly God never fail to amaze me.. He is so magnificent! He allows things for me to see the beauty of everything and to get use to the light that He is leading me.. I'm not really a good person, but God made me beautiful that goodness exudes from that beauty He has given me..

And, I hope one day, I maybe able to share that goodness He has given me to you..

life

life has not been easy this past few days or shall i say month? family members got sick and i can't do anything but to take care of them. why do i have to do that? simply, because i love them. it's not easy to have family members who got sick. but why am i still strong? because, i have a very big back-up. i will just call on him and presto! he will give me what i need. i know that i don't deserve such treatment. he is just so loving and accepting. also, understanding. i just hope i'll be deserving when my time comes that i will need to face him. face him? yes, face him, we haven't met in person, yet. of course, now, you know who i have been referring to all this time, it's JESUS, our God!

isn't he just so wonderful. he is every inch a God through and through. he doesn't deserve me, but he chosed me to be with him. oh! i just love him, so dearly. co'z i know that he just love me more than what i can give him.

my brothers

When we were young, I always thought of protecting my brothers despite of our differences, like they are taller than me or bigger than me. My first brother, he is like a second pillar in the family. He is intelligent and has a mature point of view. His friends will ask for his advices or wisdom for any matter. My second brother he's the stubborn among us, but definitely he has the capacity to make you softened. I can vividly recall when we were young how he knew how to stop the whipping of our mother when he got scolded. But he was matured to take the responsibility to take care of the family. He tried to support the family when we're really down, during growing up. And my third brother, he was so cute when he was a baby. Everybody just loved him. He is my youngest brother, whom I supported when he studied college. I'm so proud when he finished. He doesn't have problems with his subjects, ooopps.. Except (ROTC), how I dreaded that day, when I found out that he flanked the ROTC because he didn't attended the training. My condition on him when he studied college, was that I will support him if only there will be no failing grades and if ever he will fail, he will be the one to look for money for re-enrolment of the subject. And so, he did find a job to have a money for re-taking ROTC . And now, his finally done with studies. He's working as a medical representative. I'm so blessed to have all my three brothers. They gave me so much, that I don't know how to give back.

To my brothers, I may have not say it always, but I want you to know guys that I LOVE YOU, so much.. I thank God for giving me brothers like you..

Ciao!