my sis

when i was younger, i've always thought i'll be the only daughter our family could have.. year 1993, a baby girl was born, she became my youngest sister.. i didn't know how to react at first.. maybe, i'll get jealous co'z the attention won't be with me anymore.. we grew up very differently.. i think i was born tough and strong.. she was meek and mild.. we are the exact opposite of each other.. i'm petite and small, while she got big bones and a lot taller than me.. she is prettier also, mind you.. but she is the sweetest among all.. she doesn't speak much, because she's afraid to commit mistake.. unlike me, so bossy and authoritarian, well maybe, because i'm the eldest..

my sister, Jhoy is the love of our family.. i know i've never been a good sister to her in the past.. but i know now my lesson.. she has been my source of joy in our family.. she just wants to make me smile and erase that frown on my face.. if only, she can do my work for me, i think she'll do it for me.. that's how sweet and caring my sister is.. i've been blinded by jealousy and all.. only to realize, i don't have any reason to be jealous about.. each one of us has his/her own role in the family.. i love my sister as i love my family, but i love my God above all..

isn't it wonderful for people to be together with one reason, that is, to love and serve God will all our might..

retreat 07-08

The retreat given to us by Father Gerry Juarez was superb according to my officemates. I really have not attended it that much but I felt that it was really good, to serve my officemates.. I've never felt Jesus more than anything but in serving other people.. I got tired physically, but my spirit is lifting me up..

I got a confession on that day.. I realized i'm not crying because i'm hurt, but i'm crying because I love the person, the reason why i'm crying.. I'm hurting not for myself but for the love I have for that person, none other than my father.. I just want him to remain with our God, but I realized I can only pray for him and allow God to take its course. I love my father, I am not surrendering him for anything, but I have to let go.. I cannot change him, but my faith will.. I know God will never abandon my father, he will take care of him.. I did not dream of losing my father to sickness or anything but if ever God will get him from me, I just pray that he has accepted our God as his saviour and creator..

I've realized so many things in that retreat in Bethania House of Prayer, and truly God never fail to amaze me.. He is so magnificent! He allows things for me to see the beauty of everything and to get use to the light that He is leading me.. I'm not really a good person, but God made me beautiful that goodness exudes from that beauty He has given me..

And, I hope one day, I maybe able to share that goodness He has given me to you..